i'm evolving into something different. i'm not sure how much control i have in the direction i'm going. i don't know about free will. sometimes i think i'm to easily conditioned. perhaps i ought to put a foot down, and just be the person i want to be... oh, but that me gets hurt too easily. i like the me that gets hurt, but i can barely stand the pain. i've always been this way. i can't change.
i'm the old me.
(this entry - tongue in cheek - i'm pretty damn funny sometimes, really)