If things don't go the way I want them to, I get hurt. I'm not going to be me anymore. I think it universal, that people want to be loved. I'm not going to be human anymore. I don't want people to love me... wanting to be loved is too distracting, and causes too much pain. I'm not going to want to do things with people anymore... wanting to do something with someone who doesn't want to do something with you hurts. Being hurt is too distracting... takes up a lot of energy, and doesn't get me anywhere.
I am going to love myself only, and do things only with me.
I've always wanted things I cannot have. So, I am no longer going to be of want. I don't want anything - material or spiritual. I'm done.