Fuck... he was right.
Thinking and feeling... I'm going to stop. I'm going to become a agnostic monk... Skate and I use to sit in computer class and dream of our caves on neighboring mountain tops where we would eat lizard tails as a form of sustenance, and live out our lives alone.
That sounds so appealing right now.
I'm going into the wilderness, never to return. I can not trust my ability to communicate because, after all, one only hears what they want to. Of course, some are better at communicating than others... and some are better at listening...
I want to perform harikari, so that I can remove the pain from inside... (that's not a suicide threat, i just wish that emotional pain could be dealt with that cleanly)
I just wasn't prepared. I didn't know that this is what was going to happen... I had no idea, even. I felt safe with her.
That's what I get for thinking.