Last night I slept well... The nights immediately before, I had to take sleeping aides in order to fall asleep. I've been bothered by the fact that in the last seven years my father has only called me 2 times. My mother has called me only a handful of times in the last year, and that is average.
I feel like such a fucking burden to people. I feel like, if I stopped calling family and friends, I would fall off the planet. This year has been fucked up emotionally...
I am not strong.
I need to belong to someone, or thing that doesn't cast me away. I feel fucking useless.